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Monday, November 25th, 2002
1:37 pm	Good news... I have an internship for next semester! I am so excited! I will be program director of Brightwood Community Center's Kids Club! And I will run their summer camp. I went to Jay today, in career services to talk about how much and how they will pay me. So I am doing my internship on work study, and then the community center will pay the difference. I should start out at 9 or 10 dollars an hour! Plus I will be working at the YMCA still, and there I make 8 dollars an hour. You can't beat that. Plus, it's doing something I LOVE! So in the meantime I will be napping until I go to work, and thinking of the changes I want to make in the center to benefit them more. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Lean On Me (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
11:10 pm	Book I bought my mom for Christmas... I bought this book for my mom for Christmas, and I had to put it in my journal. It is a gorgeous book, and all mothers should have a copy of it. So get up off your butt, go to Hallmark, and buy your mom this book! Here is what it reads... "Mom, the other day I was rubbing my belly button and it really made me stop and think - what a funny little reminder of such an important connection. A connection that reminds me of how I came to be me! I'm sure it's hard to imagine that I was once small, helpless, and completely dependant on someone else, but I was. And that someone else was you, Mom. You were the one to show me my first butterfly, and my first rainbow. You were there when I took my very first steps (which looked remarkably close to my very first hula lesson). You were the first person to make me smile and laugh, and you were right there to hear my first words - "Dad-dee!" (Mom, I am soooo sorry about that.) It makes me feel wonderful when people say I resemble you, and it's true! We have the same shaped eyes, the same ears, the same nose. And if you look closely you'll see that even our toes are similar. When you think about it, that's isn't so surprising - I will always be a part of you, because you created me. You sculpted my face with a million tender kisses. You taught me all of the important stuff about our world and my place in it. I learned everything that matters from watching you and listening to you. (And my, my, my, that birds and bees conversation was a real eye-opener!) You shared with me all the values that make you so special - kindness, forgiveness, honesty, persistence, thoughtfulness, and especially patience. You also taught me that even the worst day seems okay with a big mouthful of milk and cookies. (Mom, you'd be amazed how often your calming philosophy of milk and cookies has carried me through the hard times.) What I'm saying here, Mom, is that you are the foundation upon which my character is built. And I just want to thank you. Thank you for always making me feel so warm, safe, and loved. For giving me everything I needed (and then some) to grow up and fulfill my potential. For calling me your "perfect little angel" (despite overwhelming evidence that this was not actually the case). Thank you for being my full-time, on-call personal chauffeur from day one. Thank you for your delicious home cooking and for packing so much love and nutrition into my lunch box day after day and year after year. (And an extraspecial thank you, Mom, for the intoxication smell of freshly baked brownies!) Thank you for letting a chubby-cheeked two-year-old run wild among your most precious possessions and for not saying "I told you so, I told you so, I told you so" nearly as often as you could have. Thank you for picking me up whenever I wanted a cuddle or a better view. (This probably wasn't too good for your back, Mom.) Thank you for flying to my rescue every time you heard me cry out - "I wanted my Mom-meeeeee!!!" Whenever I got into a bind, you were always there for me. You've always known what to say, or what not to say, to make me feel better. With your strong, gentle hands, and calm wise words, plus lots of warm and loving hugs. You mended broken toys and broken hearts time and time again. Thank you, Mom. Thank you for encouraging me to recognize the real beauty inside me and to stand tall. Thank you for telling me I could grow up to be successful at anything I wanted if only I believed in myself the way you believed in me. Mom, I can't tell you how much it meant to know you were always right beside me, urging me on to live my dreams. You gave me enough self-confidence to face all the challenges of this world with a smile. But Mom, as wonderful as our relationship has bee, I'm not pretending it was always peaceful and perfect. I know we got into a flap over things every now and then (which rarely ended well for me). And even though I am gradually coming to terms with eating broccoli and taking that terrible pink cough syrup. I'm not sure I'll ever get over you making me kiss your great-aunt smack on the mustache! but upon reflection, I realize that I'm really the one who should say, "I'm sorry." As you recall, your little bundle of joy wasn't always a bundle of laughs. I'm sorry for the times I upset you or made you worry about me and for all the sleepless nights I caused. I'm sorry for splashing around in mud puddles after you dressed me up in my best clothes and new shoes and for asking "Are we there yet? Are we there yet?" every time we went driving. I'm sorry I tried so hard to sneak out of taking baths and for sulking when you made me go to school or wouldn't let me get a Mickey Mouse tattoo or get my tongue pierced....I'm truly sorry for the times I was downright nasty and difficult (especially in nice restaurants)! And I do feel bad about all the 5 A.M. in-your-face wake-up calls on my birthdays, Christmas morning, and all those times I was too excited to sleep. I'm really sorry I didn't give you more time to yourself. Even just a few more quiet moments to dream. I realize now what a tremendous sacrifice you made for me. I know my playtime took precedence over your rest time, my meal times took precedence over your meal times, and my potty training took precedence over absolutely everything. Then every time you tried to relax, I'd burst into the room with outrageous demands, like: "Mom, I'm starving!" "Mommy, I'm bored!" "Mommy, I can't find my pet chicken anywhere. I need you to wake up and help me find it right now!" Frankly I'd be lost without you, Mom, and I only wish I had more than one lifetime to repay the incredible debt I owe you. You have shown me a world filled with love and wonder you have put me on the path to a rich and rewarding life and you have made me happier than you could possibly imagine. I want the whole world to know: MY MOM IS THE GREATEST MOM IN THE UNIVERSE! Because you are. Thank you, Mom. Thank you for everything. Isn't that a gorgeous book? I loved it! I want to get the book "Looking for Mr. Right" Well that is enough for one night. Current Mood: impressed Current Music: Wind Beneath My Wings (Comment on this)
Monday, November 4th, 2002
8:36 pm	I found this interesting, and it describes me to a T!!!!! Here is what my hand writing says about me... The lean of your sentence communicates your optimistic or pessimistic tendencies. Your lean indicates that: You are even-tempered and extremely reliable. You have control over your emotions, and you like rules. You should be a substitute teacher. The spacing of your words communicates how well you get along with others. Your spacing indicates that: You are extroverted and spontaneous. You are at ease with people, but often times suffer from insecurity. The loop of your "g's" communicates your attitudes toward sex. Your "g's" indicate that: You are clannish and selective of your friends and sexual partners. Why are you so uptight? Silly goose. The bar height of your "t's" communicates your work ethic and ambition. Your "t's" indicate that: You are very precise. Organization is very important to you, and you use your self-control to get the job done. The Great Goosini does not want to mess with you. The dots above your "i's" communicate your self-image. Your dots tell me that: You are meticulous and have supreme concentration. Don't get too cocky! The Great Goosini could out-think you any day of the week. And, The Great Goosini can fly. Beat that! Here is what my palm says... The lines on your wrist are called Rascettes, also known as "The Bracelets of Life." The more rascettes you have, the more years of quality life you will have. This does NOT indicate how many years you will live; just how many of those years will be filled with joy, fortune, and extreme happiness. Your number of rascettes tell me that: The Great Goosini estimates that have about 55 - 85 years of quality life in your bones. But before you sign up for that retirement home, remember that you can never beat The Great Goosini at shuffleboard, foolish biped. The line that runs from underneath your index finger across your palm is your Head Line. Your head line determines your strength of character and your mental power. Your head line tells me that: You are highly independent and hate to followers others. You tend to stay focused on your own needs and goals. As a result, you exhibit particularly strong intelligence when dealing with business matters. You can be quite egocentric, though you make up for this by being generous when donating to charity. If you'd like to give some charity to The Great Goosini, you'll be happy to know that he accepts travelers' checks and all major credit cards. The line that runs from underneath your pinky across your palm is your Heart Line. Your heart line has everything to do with love and relationships. It also tells you about your romantic life. Your heart line indicates that: You are a particularly caring person. The Great Goosini is in awe of the hard work and effort you put in for the good of mankind. Because of your kind heart, you shall be rewarded with tremendous luck later in life. The line that curves from above your thumb down to your wrist is called your Life Line (no relation to Regis). Your life line is the measure of your life force, the strength of your family ties, and the general happiness you will find in life. Your life line shows me that: Unlike The Great Goosini, you do not wish to travel the world; you are content to be where are you are. In order to reach the highest levels of happiness, you should constantly push yourself to achieve and experiment with life. If you change your career path to something completely unexpected, you will be pleasantly rewarded. Perhaps a career as a prognosticating swami goose?... Scary huh? Current Mood: amused Current Music: Exorcist theme (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 27th, 2002
1:10 pm	The day started off terrible! I woke up this morning, so me and my roommate could go to church. I laid my undershirt on the sink, and it fell into my salt scrub! *Side note: Salt scrub does wonders for you skin!: End side note* So I washed it out, and I had to put the shirt on wet! And it's not the hottest day outside, but oh well. That shirt was thin, so it dried pretty fast. As I was sitting in church, I realized how much I missed going. I am going to try to get there every Sunday. My aunt and uncle are moving to Virginia soon. They will be right outside DC. Not the place I want my family to be. I would like to have Emily to come live with me. She is 13, and I don't want anything happening to her in DC. I know her mother wouldn't care. I don't think they like her much. They treat her like shit. She has been treated the same way I have in the past, so I know how she feels. I might bring that up to her mom. I know Emily would be all for it. That is all for now. Current Mood: numb Current Music: No music. I be sleeping. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 26th, 2002
7:51 pm	All I want is my back muscles to be defined and a nice flat tummy. Do I have to go through the pain of working out? Where the hell is my magic lamp?!?! Sex burns a lot of calories. IF ONLY I HAD A SEX LIFE!!!! Or at least have the one I used to have. DAMN! I am getting the short end of the stick on TWO sticks! What a crock! Current Mood: sore Current Music: Stayin Alive (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 20th, 2002
11:07 am	Confused... Yesterday I was sitting at my computer and started crying for no apparent reason. After I started crying, I didn't even want to go get De'Ron, but I knew I had made him a promise, and I NEVER make promises I can't keep. So my mom and I went and picked him up. My mom and his mom are good friends now, oh hell both of our families it seems like are getting closer and closer. So my mom and I each picked up a baby. I told her I was afraid of breaking them because I had never held a baby that was so tiny, and she said that De'Ron was just starting to hold them. I thought that was so cute. I asked her if the boys were protective of them, and she said Oh Lord yes! When Tasha holds one of them in one arm, *laying over her arm on their tummy* De'Ron says, "Don't hold my baby sister like that. It's not safe." How cute is that? So then my mom, De'Ron, and I left. I took him to Chuck E Cheese, we went and played a few games while we waited on our pizza. We ate pizza, and then we went to play more games. We got 50 tokens. *I had a coupon* haha And I told him we weren't going to spend them all today, that we would come back on a rainy day, and he said alright. We both counted them to get half and half. After he was done playing games, he said he wanted to go play in the tubes. I would have went with him, but I was afraid that I would break them. I told him to climb up in the yellow tube, and I would take his picture. He would stick his face out of a tube, and I would take his picture. I hope they turn out! We had our pictures taken with Chuck E too. That one will definitely go on my walking down memory lane wall! There was this little boy that he played with. It is so nice to see how easily he makes friends. He could make friends with a brick I think, he is just that lovable. As he was playing in the tubes, he was never in complete site, so I would check about every 10 minutes to see if I could see him. I was so worried he would get hurt or something. I guess I have a lot of my mom in me. She worries too. I can't wait to have kids. But I kind of need a second party to help out with that. hahaI just hope I can have them. I don't think I can picture my life without kids of my own. I do want a steady job, and a husband before I have kids. That is where else I am confused about. But I will talk about that later in this entry. After spending about two hours at Chuck E Cheese we left, and I took De'Ron home. He saw some of his friends, and he took off with them. I asked him aren't you going to tell your mom hi? So he stuck his head in the door, "Tasha I'm home" haha. He is such a funny little guy. The babies were awake this time, so my mom and I each grabbed one again. I wanted pictures of them, so I took both of them and took a picture. Then I took another one with them laying in their car seats. Tasha said I could come over and help out with them any time. I will take her up on that offer. They are the most gorgeous babies I have ever seen. Heck all of her kids are gorgeous. I am so confused on what I want to do with my life. Some days I think I will just quit school and work the rest of my life at the YMCA. But 8 dollars an hour just isn't going to cut it. I want to make something of myself, but it is taking too long. I am very impatient with things. Especially things that I want. I get that from my dad, or that's what I get from the stories my sisters tell me. That's another thing I worry about. Since he is gone, who will walk me down the isle? Do I even want a big wedding? Now that Aaron is back in my life, I don't know what to do about Dave. I have feelings for Dave, but I am not for sure if they are real or not. When I see Aaron my heart stops beating, and he puts me in a mood no one else can put me in. He is moving to Indianapolis next year, and he is continuing his art degree at IUPUI, then applying to medical school. He wants to be a plastic surgeon. We talk about everything, and we tell each other everything. He told me last time I saw him that his heart was in art, but his passion was in being a doctor. I am just so confused. I want it to stop. Everything is as clear as muddy water! God help me figure this out! Point me in the right direction! I was listening to one of my Mariah Carey CDs the other day in my car. The song "Close My Eyes" came on and during the whole entire song tears rolled down my checks. This song sums up my life. My life summed up in 3 to 4 minutes of music. Here is it: I was wayward child With the weight of the world That I held deep inside Life was a winding road And I learned many things Little ones shouldn't know But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raised my head to the sky And though time's rolled by Still feel like that child As I look at the moon Maybe I grew up A little too soon Funny how one can learn To grow numb to the madness And block it away I left the worst unsaid Let it all dissipate And I try to forget But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raised my head to the sky And though time's rolled by Still feel like that child As I look at the monn Maybe I grew up A little too soon Nearing the edge Obvious I almost Fell right over A part of me Will never be quite able To feel stable That woman-child falling inside Was on the verge of fading Thankfully i Woke up in time Guardian angel i Sail away on an ocean With you by my side Orange clouds roll by They burn into your image And you're still alive (You're always alive) But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raise my head to the sky And though time's rolls by Still feel like that child As I look at the monn Maybe I grew up A little too soon Well, that is all for now. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Unsinkable Ships....*I think that is the title* (Comment on this)
Friday, October 4th, 2002
1:53 pm	A cute story... An Angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen the spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have 200 movable parts, all replaceable, run on black coffee and leftovers, have a lap that can hold three children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart, and have six pairs of hands." The Angel was astounded at the requirements for this one. "Six pairs of hands! No Way! And that's just on the standard model?" the Angel asked. The Angel tried to stop the Lord. "This is too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." "But I can't!" the Lord protested, "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18-hr days." The Angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made Her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?" asked the Angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate." The Angel then noticed something and reached out and touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak with this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord objected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the Angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her loneliness, her grief, and her pride." The Angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything, for women are truly amazing." Women have strengths that amaze men. They carry hardships, they carry burdens but they hold happiness, love, and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up for injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin! They bring joy and hope. They give compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have a lot to say and a lot to give. Isn't this true? What man could do all of that? I can't think of one. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Monday, September 30th, 2002
9:49 pm	Short entry... I found out why someone in College Mentors for Kids quit. She said the staff was too power hungry. I have to agree with her. One of my staff I would like to beat with a baseball bat! But there is this law something to do with that being a criminal act or something. Whatever that means. haha I was told that by another mentor this year. It really irritates me that the staff is pushing the mentors away. I hope they don't think that of me, but I guess I will never know, will I? Current Mood: irritated Current Music: You Make Me Sick (Comment on this)
Friday, September 27th, 2002
11:53 am	It has been so long since I have updated that I had to go back and read my last entry. There is a lot to say, and not much time to do it. I want to take a nap here shortly before I go to work. I have to make the two hour drive home tonight. So anywho! September 11th was kind of creepy! I remember walking out that day a year ago, and thinking to myself, "What a gorgeous day, not a cloud in the sky." September 11th of 2002, I thought the exact same thing. We had five minutes of silence at my morning elementary site. I am very surprised our kids could keep their mouths shut for that long. Our morning kids are almost if not more loud than my afternoon kids. Enough about that day. On September 20th, as few as four and as many of nine tornadoes ripped through Indianapolis's south side. I was at the Walgreens by campus, and there is a fire station right on the corner, and the tornado sirens went off. I was talking to my mom on the phone, and she asked what that noise was, and I told her. I said it was nothing that the last time it happened the tornado never touched down and it was 12 miles away. So I told her I would call her when I got home. So I was driving down State Road 135, and all of the sudden it started pouring rain. I could not see ten feet in front of me. So I put on my brakes, and my mom called. I told her I was caught in a bad storm, and she told me to pull over. I told her I just wanted to get home. At the point of the down pour, I was at the intersection Stop 11 Road and State Road 135. Baxter YMCA, Galyans, and Pier One Imports is on US 31 and Shelby Street, right off of Stop 11 and Shelby. In other words those buildings were about a fourth of a mile from me. As I was crossing that intersection a tornado was wiping out those buildings. I work at Baxter and it might have to be leveled so they can rebuild it. There is a big building just south west of the main building. It is probably about the size of a kid's softball diamond if not bigger. It was moved seven feet off of it's foundation. Our softball diamond is gone, there are no more trees out in the yard of Baxter, but yet a church right behind Baxter went completely untouched. Weird huh? There was only one death, and several injured out of the entire south side that was hit. Several homes were lost, but those can be replaced. No one at Baxter was injured. Which is totally awesome because there were 50 kids and 40 adults. All of the workers got all of the children down to the basement rather quickly. Go Baxter Staff!! So yeag I think that is about it. Well everything that can be a public post anyway. There are some things that are irritating me other than that, but that will be posted at a later date, and it will be a secured entry. So if you are not on my friends list, I am sorry. Does anyone read this anyway? Probably not, so it doesn't matter. Current Mood: drunk (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 19th, 2002
9:38 am	It's been a while... Sorry for waiting so long to update, but I really haven't had the time. If it is not one thing I am doing it is another. It seems as if all I do is work, go to class, study, sleep, and CMFK! But hey those are the things I enjoy doing. Things have really picked up for me in the past two weeks. Here is what has happened: Earlier this week Kristina and I were walking through Schwitzer, and I saw Lacie, which is our student advocate. He asked Kristina what she was doing with me, so I spoke up, and I said, "Didn't you know we were sisters?" He looked at me funny, and said something. Then he asked me if I was going to work summer camp, and I told him heck yeah that those kids were my babies. I love them, and that I wouldn't miss it. Then he offered me a tutoring job over the summer in the evenings. I told him I would be very interested, but my kids come first. He said he understood, and that he would keep me in mind. So then last night was the first Laurelwood meeting, and Melinda and Greg were there. Melinda is the senior director at the YMCA, and Greg is the NEW director of Laurelwood camp. He asked me if I was going to do camp, and I told him that I told Melinda if I don't work at Laurelwood, I won't be working for them at all. Because those kids reached for my hand and touched my heart. So then I told him I was going to apply for the site director position. He said, "You know you are going to have to go through me, don't you?" I looked at him and had a look like "am I supposed to be intimidated by you or something?" So I smiled and said I know. I said, I think camp will go better next year because the kids know I don't take any crap from them. I think I pretty much have that job in the bag! WEE DOGGIES!!! Then today I called my mom, and she told me I had gotten something in the mail from the Dean's List. I was accepted and will be published in the National Dean's List book!!!!! I was so freaking excited. I will have the plaque from that in a few weeks. I am so freaking happy. Things are finally starting to fall into place. Now if I can just make straight A's this semester that would be the icing on the cake! Well, I am off. I can't sit at this computer much longer. Love you all!!!!! Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: I am at a loss of words for a song title right now...sorry! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 30th, 2002
10:16 pm	Not a long entry, but something that brought tears to my eyes... Today at work, we were supposed to have our kids to draw their hero in remembrance of the September 11th attacks. Instead of looking at that day as tragedy we turned it into triumph. So I was walking around the room asking what they were drawing, and I come across a little boy named Chris, *of course his name has been changed due to confidentuallyity purposes.* He has cerebral pausey and uses a walker. He was huddled over his paper, and I asked him what he was drawing. He moved his arms, and to my surprise he drew God. And wrote this: "Because He made us, and He gides us to the right path." That is an exact quote and exact spelling. When I read that, tears filled my eyes. I love this kid so much. He is so amazing, and when his father picked him up from school I told him what an amazing kid he had, and how much I enjoyed having him in day care. So who is your hero? Current Mood: touched Current Music: God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 18th, 2002
11:50 am	It's been a few days... On Friday, I had a meeting at the College Mentors for Kids state office to do some last minute things for the year. I got the calender completed, goals set, mentor expectations written, and the call outs almost completed. Then on Saturday I took my little brother De'Ron down to my hometown. We walked down to our barn, and of all the animals we have he was most impressed with the chickens! How funny is that? I think he was kind of afraid of the camels, but I don't blame him. He caught one of our horses and our donkey. He played with the new baby kittens. Then we went into town. We went by my middle school, and I said, "De'Ron that is where I went to middle school." After I said that I felt so old!!! Then we went out to my high school, and my old high school band was rehearsing. They sound awesome! Thirteen more charts, and the show is complete, and the first contest is in three weeks! I introduced De'Ron to my band mom, Susie. Then as I was walking into the school I saw Jessica. She says, ."So are you coming back to relive old memories?" I said, "Heck no. I was in town, so I thought I would stop by to see if you guys were practicing" "So how do we sound?" "I think you sound awesome! And the new guy Mr.King seems like he is going to be a REAL director!" *laughs* "Yeah, he is really nice." "Well, I want to go in and catch Marsh, talk to you later." I had to track down Marsh. I introduced him to De'Ron, and I told De'Ron that he was my band director for seven years. About that time two of the high school kids almost run De'Ron over, and Marsh says, "Don't run over my man De'Ron." You can always count on Marsh to say something like that. He is the greatest guy ever! As we were going home TJ slept the entire way. I was glad. He would lay on my lap for a while, then walk over to his seat. *reminder TJ is my chihuahua* De'Ron I think he fell asleep too. De'Ron and I went out to eat, ran to Target, and then I took him home. When I dropped him off, his mama said, "You two look tired." I told her I was very tired. De'Ron walked me out to my car, and then about 10 minutes after I got home, my phone rings. It was De'Ron. He called to make sure I got home ok. How cute is that?!? He is so caring to be only eight years old!! He has a big heart in a little body. As soon as I got home, I went to bed. I was asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. TJ slept the whole night too. When my 6 AM alarm went off, TJ popped up and ran to the door. He is the smartest dog I have ever known or had. He knows when my alarm goes off, it's potty time! I took him out, let him run for a while. We came back in and slept until 11! Went out again for potty break, I ate a yogurt, and he is asleep on the couch. I am really surprised he hasn't came in here to get me yet. When he is ready to go to bed, he will come into my bedroom jump on my leg and run to the couch. *note* I have been sleeping on the couch b/c my bed is too hard. I need a new mattress *end note* Well I am going to go lay down and chill with TJ. Write more later when something exciting happens. Don't hold your breath. Nothing exciting happens here in the city! Current Mood: awake Current Music: America Town (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 15th, 2002
11:06 am	I started at my elementary schools on Tuesday. I thought I would be there early and have everything set up before my staff and kids got there. When I went in the day before to meet the principal, the secretary said the school would be open at 6 A.M. So I get to the school about 6:15, thinking the program started at 6:45. *I was never told what time it started, so I just had to assume* The school was still locked, so I sat in my car until 6:30. I thought, "Well maybe the front door is unlocked." So I walked around to the front door, and to my surprise it was unlocked. When I walked through the door though, I set the alarm off! hahah I walked all through the school, and no one was there. Mike arrives about 6:50ish, and so does the guy who unlocks the door. One of the ladies who walked in with him looked at me and asked me how I got in, and I told her the front door was unlocked. The door had been unlocked all night long! So any how! That night at my other elementary that I am in charge of, the kids are holy hellians! One little boy smacked me on the ass. *he is my neighbor* I said, "Jordan, that is not appropriate." He just smiled at me and walked off. He's so damn cute, it is hard to yell at him. One little boy came to the day care that wasn't supposed to be there, and the little boy who was supposed to be there took the bus home to an empty house! It was one big ass mess. But we made it through the day. Yesterday went a lot better. We are getting more kids, but most of them are very well behaved. Yesterday in between working I took TJ out to use the bathroom. He saw another dog across the street, so he started barking at it. While he is barking at that dog, a 40 pound pit bull is running toward him. So I pick him up, then he is trying to get out of my arm, so he can attack this pit bull. The pit bull, which is named "Boo" his owner comes toward me, and says, "Oh he won't hurt him." I said, "No, but my dog will bite your dog." So she put Boo onto a leash, and I put TJ down. Boo was standing there like he is king of the land, and TJ is all up in his face barking. It was so damn funny because TJ only weighs 6 pounds, and he is done growing! Boo was looking at him like, "Why the hell are you barking at me? I could eat you in one bite!" So this morning I took TJ out, and we met Boo again. This time TJ bit him! I told Boo's owner that TJ bit him, but he didn't draw blood. For being such a small shit, he sure holds his ground! I think he thought that Boo was going to hurt me. TJ protects me. He is so damn funny to watch though. The other day I walked into the living room and found one of my bears, and TJ had ripped it's face off. It only has one eye now. LOL Well, I need to get going. I need to call my boss. I think I might be in trouble. *plays music* Current Mood: worried Current Music: Play (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
12:15 pm	From this point on my entries will be entered in German. So for those of you who can't speak German, I am sorry. For those of you who can please feel free to comment. Ich habe an der Grundschule gestern angefangen arbeiten. Die Kinder für den meisten Teil sind ok. Die Kinder sind morgens alles unterhaltene Selbst, deshalb erhält es Art des Bohrens. Damit Mike und ich um und Rede stehen, während die Kinder spielen. Die Kinder sind nachmittags kleine Ungeheuer. Hören sie, sie einander nicht achten nicht zu, und zuhören ich sie nicht habe erwähnt? Ich habe besser eine Sold Erhöhung erhalten, oder ich werde ab umsturz werden. Ich habe einen goldenen Stern schon erhalten, weil ich die einzige Stelle bin, die hereingerufen hat, meinen Morgen Nachrichten zu prüfen. Ich denke Stelle Direktor ziemlich leicht wird soll sein. Oder wenigstens hoffe ich, daß es ist. Der HochschulMentors für Kinder ist Personal Rückzug wirklich gut gegangen. Ich habe deshalb viel Spaß gehabt! Ich habe erfahren, daß Erin zwanzig fünf Jahre alt ist. Ich habe gedacht, daß sie zwanzig zwei, zwanzig drei am ältesten war. Sie ist so hübsch, und damit junges Anschauen. Ich muß mich mit ihr diesem Freitag gehen trifft, Dinge für das Jahr festzulegen. Gut muß ich den Hund aus nehmen, bevor ich hinter gehe, zu arbeiten. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Rest of my Life (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 8th, 2002
9:17 pm	What a day... Today is the next to last day of camp, which means today was Heidi's last day of camp. She went out and bought Butterfinger bars. No, not the bite size, but whole candy bars. Here I thought I was being nice and buying bite sized ones, but hey it's alright. She's my friend, although kind of quiet. We have been through a lot this summer for just meeting in June. Heidi and I organized a scavenger hunt on campus today, so our kids would release some extra energy. It took about 15 minutes to write the clues, and about 45 to put them up. As we were putting them up, we had a clue that read "The building where we go get drinks and use the restroom." We put that clue ON the building. Then we went to the bell tower, and put the clue, "Where the hourly music can be heard." Do you follow what we were doing? I said, "Hey, Heidi, guess what we are doing. We are putting the clues on the buildings that the clues direct the kids to. She didn't get it at first, so I told her to go up to the bell tower and read the clue. LOL! I told her we weren't the brightest crayons in the box!! We both giggled and we and redone the hunt. The day for the most part went rather well. We still have the smart mouths, the bad attitudes *although fewer*, and still hitting and picking, but nothing like the first week of camp. Goodness!! I am applying to be the site director of that camp next summer. Hopefully I will get it because A LOT will be changing. Speaking of site director. I was offered a position as site director at a before and after school day care at a local elementary. Hopefully I will get it. That means a dollar raise!!! WEE DOGGIES!!! I know Melinda knows I can handle being site director, so hopefully she will put in a good word for me. Although it is going to be a HUGE switch. Going from kids that are at poverty level and below to rich little brats that have everything and that are ungrateful!! I shouldn't say that because not all of them are, but MOST of them are! Well, any who! I need to get my butt to bed. Tomorrow, like I said, is our last day, and I want to be well rested for it. Good night y'all!! Current Mood: drained Current Music: So hard to say goodbye to yesterday... (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 4th, 2002
3:51 pm	Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz My favorite character was always Charlie Brown, so I guess I know why. I stole this out of someone's journal that I surfed into today. I am patiently awaiting 6:30, so I can take TJ out for his walk, and then go to U of I for OA stuff. Weekends so suck!! They are so damn boring. Goodness. I wanted to go home next weekend, but I have training retreat for College Mentors for Kids, which should be fun. I hope? Well, I am out of here, going to go do something probably lay on the couch watching movies that I have seen so many times I know all of the lines too. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Who Ya Love (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 3rd, 2002
8:41 pm	It has been a long time since I have updated a public entry, so I thought I would do one tonight... A lot has happened since last time I made a public entry. I am still working at the summer camp. It is going better, but we still have our rough days. We have dismissed about 5 kids. Three for assaulting the counselors, one for assaulting a counselor and a police officer, and one for spraying a counselor in the face with a fire extinguisher. These kids are so rough, but I love them to death. I know almost all of their families. haha One camper has the cutest little sisters. Everyday they come and sit on my lap while I am watching the kids at the play ground. I am finally matched up with De'Ron in Big Brothers Big Sisters. We do something about twice a week. He and his family come to my games on Friday nights. I love his entire family. I found out his mama is going to have twin girls! How exciting is that?!? She is due in October, but I have a bet going for September 25th. I have met a lot of good friends from work this summer. My funniest and I think the best are Hannah and Heidi. They are identical twins, but when they are standing next to one another I can tell them apart. But get them apart, and I have no clue. LOL They have had a pretty rough summer. One day at camp when Heidi walked up, she didn't say hi she just sat down on the ground. I didn't say anything to her either, and as the day went on she kept complaining about how she didn't feel good. That she was sick at her stomach. Me being the teasing person I am, I kept teasing her about being pregnant. At lunch she went to her car to check her cell phone for a message, and she told me her mom had called and got her into the doctor to get her shots for school or something, and she had to leave at 4 PM. So she drove to our site for the afternoon, and she told me when we got there that she had to leave at 3 because she had an appointment at 3:15. Things she was saying all that day were not adding up. At one point she said she had been up since 4 AM, then later that day she said she had been up since 5 AM. That Hannah woke her up at 5. She told me her doctor would just pull her behind a door, give her her shot and then let her go. That didn't make sense, so I knew she was lying about something. Later that night she calls me, and tells me that her dad's business had burned to the ground. They recieved a phone call at 5 AM that morning saying it was on fire. All of her phone calls were to her mom to see if the fire was out. The only thing left of the business was a concrete wall. I felt extremely sorry for her and offered if she needed me to do anything and told her that I was there for her and her family. It took a lot of guts and nerve to say at work all day knowing her dad's business was on fire. Poor thing! So she and Hannah missed work the next day to go to the site to see what they could recover with their family. I happened to run into Sarah, who works with Hannah, and she said. Hannah didn't show up to work today, and she didn't call in. I said, "Sarah, Hannah called in for herself and Heidi. They have a good reason why they are not at work." So then Sarah started asking questions. I told her that it was best to ask Hannah when she returned to work the next day. Hannah didn't take it as well as Heidi did, or I should say Hannah didn't hold up so well. So I approached Darla, the bitch boss from hell!, and asked her if she had heard what happened to Hannah and Heidi, and she said yes and thanks for checking. I really can not stand that lady! She needs to get laid, oh wait she's with a different guy every night! hahah So any who! Moving on... Last week was the talent show for camp, and our kids kicked ass!! We had two dancers dancing to Jumpin' Jumpin', three dancing to That's Kool by Little Romeo, and almost all of our kids danced to the Cha Cha Slide by Mr. C. Needless to say our campers walked away with 1st, 2nd, and 3rd place totally making the other camps look like shit! I was so proud of them!!! When they girls did the pop in the cha cha slide, all of the counselors mouths dropped open! It was hilarious. The crowd was so digging it! Our kids walked with their heads a bit higher that day. I have a doggie now! He is such a cutie! His name is TJ, and he is such a good watch dog. When anyone gets close to me he barks. I took him with me to go to Rallys last night, and when the man came to the window he barked like no other. But when he handed me out my food he stopped. haha He barks at my neighbor when she waters the grass and stuff. He cracks me up! He lays on my pillow when I sleep, or he gets under my blanket and lays on my tummy. Right now he has himself buried under my blanket. I love him to death. He is totally house broke. He runs loose all the time except for when I am at work, then he goes into his crate. He runs loose all night, and he does not go to the bathroom. It's so cute because I will ask him if he needs to go potty, and he sits down by the door! And when we get back in he sits down, so I can take off his leash. I totally lucked into getting such a good dog. Well, I think that is about all for now. Nothing else I can mention without getting shitty comments in my journal or having psychos reading it! GO AWAY CRAZY PEOPLE!!! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: It's Getting Hot In Here by Nelly!!! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 19th, 2002
7:41 pm	Camp is improving! Today I had a College Mentors for Kids meeting at 9:30, and as I was walking over I stopped to see how yesterday's camp went. Lady Bug said it went better, but they still had fights. She was having problems with Meldre, and I asked her if she wanted me to try compromising with him. So I walk up to him, and say "Remember your attitude on Wednesday nights?" He said, "Yes." I said, "Can you have that attitude back and start smiling again. You're a cute kid when you smile." I told him to promise me that he would drop that attitude. He walked over with Lady Bug. Later that day, I was walking so I could go hang out with them, and I saw Brianna. Rocky said, "Look who it is. It's Boowa!" Brianna ran up and gave me the biggest hug! Then all of the sudden half of my campers were inside, and all of them gave me hugs. They asked where I had been, and I explained to them that I had training. I told them that I did not want to be at training that I would rather be with them. Then I went outside and played for a while. I saw Britney, and she asked me why I quit. I told her that I didn't quit and told her the same story. So I ran back to Central to put on tennis shoes, and two boys were sitting up against the rail. I tried a different approach than yelling at them like I did on Monday. I said, "Hey boys what are ya doing?" They said, "Nothing we are bored, and we don't want to be in the sun." I asked them to do me a favor. They agreed to, so I asked them if they could go over to where everyone else is. They said Yes, so I thanked them. And when I saw them over there once I had my tennis shoes on, I thanked them again. Derrick my youngest, he told me he missed me. It's the small things like that that touch your heart. About thirty minutes later, I took a group into get a drink, and when I came out, Natalie was sitting on the sidewalk. I could tell she was pissed, so I sat down beside her. I asked her what was wrong, and she held her fist up to me. Then Paul started shit with her, and she took off running after him. So I took off running after them both so they wouldn't fight. I busted out the bottom of my shoe while running. That's what I get for buying cheap shoes! So anywho while I was settling that argument, Brianna gets hit in the nose with a stick, and the stick had a nail in it. It scratched her face up, and she was sitting on Lady Bug's lap, so I told her to come to me while Lady Bug told Shabba what happened. So she laid her head down on my shoulder and fell asleep. I woke her up because I didn't want her sleeping. Then Blue gets all of the campers sitting down on the ground. He is this big black guy. Very intimidating. He said, "This is what is going to happen. If we catch you fighting you are gone from camp for a day. When you come back if we catch you fighting you are gone for a week. If we catch you a third time you are gone from camp for the summer. We don't care about kicking kids out of camp. This is supposed to be fun. If you have a conflict with someone come talk to a counselor. That is what we get paid for." The kids seemed to understand, or I hope they did. I don't want to send anyone home, but I will if I have to. I am working camp in the morning tomorrow. And then all day on Friday. I am excited about camp again! Well, it is off to play pool or Battle of the Sexes. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Childhood (Comment on this)
Monday, June 17th, 2002
10:21 pm	What a day of camp...time to vent So today was the first day of Laurelwood. I have to admit I was a bit scared going into the day. First of all we were under staffed. I had twelve kids in my group, and I should have had only eight. Rocky had thirteen in her group. She was to have eight. The kids did not want to do anything. All they cared about was going swimming. To make a very LONG day short, here is what happened in a nut shell. We broke up approximately TEN physical fights, one nine or ten year old boy attacked our site-director Shabba and she is 22 or 23. I had to start a collection of towels because the older kids were whacking the younger kids. I managed to get four towels in a time span of 30 minutes. I got cussed out by a thirteen year old. This one kid got an attitude with me, and me and Lady Bug pinned him up against the fence, and he screams "Don't touch me" we were not touching him at all we just had him trapped, and he knew it, and I screamed back "We're not touching you" and he sat down on the ground so I bent down with him and said "Look two boys today came up to me and asked if they could still come to camp. I would be happy to send you home and let those two boys home. This attitude you have is NOT welcome at camp and it will be here no longer and if it is you and your attitude can go home." Needless to say camp was rough today. One of their mom's told us that they are trying us. They do not pay us enough to deal with that shit, and I will NOT put up with it all summer. Well I am off to bed. I have training tomorrow. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Gansta's Paradise (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 15th, 2002
9:03 am	Wonderful week of camp! On Tuesday I got a new group of campers, and I had them for the remainder of the week, which was nice. They were such a well behaved group it made picking "camper of the day" very hard. They were so well behaved that on Thursday I let them push me into the pool. They got a big kick out of that. To my surprise they did not hang on me while I was in the pool. I told them not to, and they listened. So they all got "Wows!" This one little girl Tori is so cute! She was always the first one to sit down, when I would tell her to do something she never complained just got up and done it. On Tuesday I sung a new song to the kids. It is the Belly Button song, and it goes a little something like this: Me take care of me belly button Me like to keep him nice and clean If me neglect me belly button Him will grow a fungus green Whoa! Belly Button Whoa! Belly Button hole Where did the lint go belly button? Water washed him nice and clean Me took care of me belly button. Him no grow a fungus green Whoa! Belly button Whoa! Belly button hole Ariel, a little girl with autism, she loved that song, and all day long she went around screaming "belly button, belly button song" and she would lift up the counselor's shirts and point to their belly button. She is so damn cute! You have to love her to pieces. I have moved out of sick ass Warren hall, and I get to move into my apartment hopefully in 2 to 3 weeks. I am hoping my building is done being built! I am so excited. When I move in, I am having a party and Hannah and Heidi are going to buy the liquor! woo hoo! It's great having friends that are 21!! Well, I am out. I have to go cash my check. 250 dollars for one week!! That's pretty damn good if you ask me, and I am getting paid to play!!! (Comment on this)